ROOM 219

virtual extension of the ESL classroom

My Name Is Bella


My name is Isabella, or Bella. I prefer Bella. It means “beautiful” in Italian. It’s nice to be called that, I guess. Only now I know that the beauty of my name is nothing by comparison with the beauty of this guy I met in my new school. He is gorgeous! And it’s complicated. So, I decided to start this blog because there is not much to do in Forks. The library is understocked and there’s no decent bookstore around either.  The weather puts me in melancholic mood. My Dad is cool, and he doesn’t hover, but he is not much of a talker. I wish there was somebody out there to help me sort things out.  They call it “coming of age” in the English class. Everybody goes through this stage.  If I knew the right questions to ask, I would pull through.

October 22, 2012 - Posted by | Uncategorized


  1. how was your life without your mother?
    how did you feel when you first met edward in your life?

    Comment by robin5 | October 24, 2012 | Reply

    • My relocation to Forks happened too fast. My head is still spinning. Separation from my Mom is hard. It created an emotional vacuum. I will be frank – there are moments when I feel sorry for myself. Why should my family circumstances force me out of childhood into adulthood with responsibilities, chores, isolation, that kind of thing? At the same time I understand that the time has come to be a giver, not a taker. Geography interferes in family life, but love is strong enough to reach across distance. Separated by state lines, we remain united by love.
      When I saw Edward, I wasn’t so much smitten with his beauty as I was struck with my own insight – beauty makes us vulnerable. It’s like a curse. The convenient truism “beauty is power” doesn’t hold anymore. This began a chain of discoveries. Everything seems more complex, more profound. I am certainly going through a transition. I moved from Phoenix to Forks physically and from 2D to 3D world mentally. My world has grown. I am loosing illusions and discovering the truth. Sometimes it’s unpleasant. I am ready to deal with it now, but I am grateful to my Mom for protecting me from it as a child.

      Comment by Dr.M | October 25, 2012 | Reply

  2. how was your frist day of school?

    how old are you?

    Comment by marisela5 | October 23, 2012 | Reply

    • Nothing special about my first day.

      Comment by Dr.M | October 23, 2012 | Reply

  3. how boy’s affect your life at the school?
    why do you live whit your father?

    Comment by victorh5 | October 23, 2012 | Reply

    • I cannot say boys affect my life at school. The way I see it – boys are boys, and girls are girls. I am glad to meet new people, but it’s hard to fit in. It’s March; the school year is almost over. Everybody is a part of a group. They have been together since elementary school. It’s hard to be new. I had to move with my father because my mother had to travel. So I have to adjust to a new life at home, too.

      Comment by Dr.M | October 23, 2012 | Reply

  4. How is life without a mom.?
    How do you feel about living with your dad?

    Comment by derian5 | October 23, 2012 | Reply

    • I miss her, and yet I enjoy my new freedom. Sometimes she makes too much fuss and doesn’t let me do what I want. She is a terrible cook. I am trying not to be like her. I understand that she needs some space. After all I am not a small child. We stay in touch, you know, texting, calls, the usual.
      Dad and I are gradually getting used to each other, we eat together as a family, but stay in separate rooms for the rest of the time. It’s better this way. Everybody needs his or her space.

      Comment by Dr.M | October 23, 2012 | Reply

  5. 1. What changes will bring into your life, if Edward was a normal person rather than a vampire?
    2. What decision can make your life more suitable than now with Edward

    Comment by albin5 | October 23, 2012 | Reply

    • Normalcy is questionable. Everybody is different in their way. I don’t want to be too philosophical, but here is my favorite definition of democracy – “Democracy is when it is safe to be a minority.” People treat vampires as a stereotype. The idea feeds the pop culture. Has anybody dared understand them? Also, I read somewhere that normal is boring. Do you have a definition for “normal”? If you do, please share with me. Edward is just a minority, and so am I. We both are not from here, transplants from another place. We both feel this strangeness, and it unites us.
      I do not understand your second question. Sorry.

      Comment by Dr.M | October 23, 2012 | Reply

    • Edward must be totally different than you. What decision can you make, to change Edward’s behavior that suits you?

      Comment by albin5 | October 24, 2012 | Reply

      • I do not have power to change another person. A decision to change comes from within. Some people know how to get what they want from others. There are two categories – manipulators and … what do I call them? … It’s hard to label the second type, they are so nice to every one, their positive energy generates acts of kindness and spirit of cooperation. But manipulative types are pretty bad. Driven by a selfish desire, they play people like toys or pawns on a chess board. I am neither. Your question made me understand that it takes work to make a relationship work. Maybe I should change first, not “to suit” somebody, but just to be a bit happier in the relationship.

        Comment by Dr.M | October 25, 2012

  6. How was your first day of school?

    How was your day different from the routine from now?

    Comment by OMAR5 | October 23, 2012 | Reply

    • My first day brought a few surprises. Most of the people were friendlier than I expected. In a small town a newcomer always attracts attention. Now I have more of a routine. I do schoolwork, cook, clean the kitchen. My Mom panics if I don’t call, so I report to her regularly. You know – parental control.

      Comment by Dr.M | October 23, 2012 | Reply

  7. Why is Edward so complicated?
    What is it like to live in Forks without your mother?

    Comment by Evelin5 | October 23, 2012 | Reply

    • It’s not easy to understand another. Maybe he has a secret. Humans are complicated. I am starting to see it now. When you grow up, sooner or later you start feeling nostalgic about the simplicity of life as a child.
      Life in Forks and life without my Mom are two different issues. I do not understand how even a happy family can endure this place. I don’t blame my Mom for divorcing Dad. Probably, she ran away not form him, but from this horrible climate – nothing but swirling bits of white all the time.

      Comment by Dr.M | October 23, 2012 | Reply

  8. When is your birthday?
    How old are you ?

    Comment by victorc5 | October 23, 2012 | Reply

    • Why did you have a crush on Edward ?
      And what you like about him ?

      Comment by victorc5 | October 23, 2012 | Reply

      • Can you explain inexplicable? A strong feeling can overpower you; you will loose control. If there is a reason, I don’t know it yet.
        I cannot say that I like Edward, but his eyes have extraordinary power. I just feel attracted to him against my will.

        Comment by Dr.M | October 23, 2012

  9. 1) How do you stop thinking about boys?
    2) How do you feel about being alone with your dad?

    Comment by Kassandra | October 23, 2012 | Reply

    • I am not into boys. I do not spend hours dreaming about them. I wonder why you asked this question. I am here like a fish out of water. I’d rather read, but right now there’s deficit of books in my life. I do search the Internet, but miss books. ( You should look up the Phoenix library. It’s an amazing building.) Bottom line, as a teenager, I do not have experience to answer questions that life throws at me. Literature offers a relief, you are not the only one with problems, you can identify with characters.
      My Dad is cool. He let me be in charge. I am still a minor – that’s a derogatory word for a teenager. Adults speak a different language, a language that puts them in control. But my Dad is not that bad. In fact, he gave me a truck – that’s a big deal! I also hold the key to the banquet hall, and he likes my cooking. I am free to decide what groceries to buy.

      Comment by Dr.M | October 23, 2012 | Reply

  10. How do you find the balance between love and school? How was your life before you had met Edward?
    What events are landmark events in a life of a teen?

    Comment by josue5 | October 23, 2012 | Reply

    • Your last question helped me understand what I need: to clarify my thinking. I am embarrassed to think that a girl’s life can be divided into period before and after a boy. Am I not a person enough independent from an association with another? I am thinking now that I need to do some serious soul searching and become stronger as an individual. I simply don’t know yet how to balance school problems and a relationship and problems at home. I just take it one day at a time. Sometimes I think it’s the rain that fogs my thinking. Everything was different in the past, in Phoenix, under the bright sun.

      Comment by Dr.M | October 23, 2012 | Reply

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